So not together right now.

I have been really busy with work from the past week. Lately when I have the time for myself, I've been thinking alot about my move. First my Internet, then my cell phone. It's so sad to lose a number you've had for a very long time. It's just a matter of time now until I'll be sitting in my room, in Germany blogging like this. I don't know.

I have so many mix-up feelings that I don't know how to express them all and I don't even know where to start. It's officially the count down. The closer it is to the day, the more I get nervous.

I went out for dinner with my close friends yesterday. I had a walk at the waterfront in Vancouver with James. It was very sad. It felt like I was saying goodbye to Vancouver and looking at the city for the last time. We were sitting at the end of Pan Pacific Hotel view dock looking over North Vancouver while talking about getting old and death.

It's so sad to think that you spend so many years taking care of yourself, making yourself look good in every way and in the end, we just die. It's so depressing.

Oh boy! So it was kind of an emotional night. No tears though which is good. I had fun but at the same time, I was thinking about my situation in Germany. That I will never have a time like I have with my friends in Vancouver in Germany ever again. Maybe not for a while.

Yikes. Ok so my brain is still not together. My thoughts are so scattered when I'm alone. I don't even know what to write anymore.